A random post asking questions with illogical answers. No pictures, just drivel. How many times did I want to post something like this but never found the right way to convey my confusion on being an aniblogger, but this is what I came up and I’d pay the 1st person 100 dollars (Or whatever is the equivalent to said amount in the poster’s region).
If any of this offends those brave enough to read this, then you understand why I don’t post analytical topics.
Sometimes I ask myself what the meaning of being an animeniac is: What does it mean to watch anime? What does it mean to study the very fabric of Japanese animation? What does it mean to be an anime blogger? Why do I do this?
Q1: hundreds of reasons but the main one is because I like the character art more than Western ones. I prefer 2D hotties (Excessive or not) over random amphibious beast #727. At least Cheetara 2011 is furry done right rather than “Insert animal ears and tail on an anime character=furry”.
Q2: Several anime preach stuff to the viewers and whether it’s worth listening to or not is a subjective opinion. If me likey what you have to show me, preach all you want. Does it have meaning? I’m not studying to become an animator/cartoonist.
Q3: Right now, it’s a link between finding people with similar interests and a non-paying job. At least that’s what it feels like sometimes.
Q4: In the hopes I can find some people with similar interests or others watching the same show and share opinions, both positive and negative. I will debate with some but not downright ridicule them. Oh, and of course promote almost all forms of yuri and SoL. At least that’s what I think I’m doing.
It’s cool that there are people who bother stopping by and all but what happens when they stop? Will this blog have any reason to continue after that? All good things come to an end but there are times I wonder whether what I’m doing right now is good at all.
Maybe it’s because I’m very forgiving. Maybe I don’t ask for much when watching certain anime. Maybe my expectations are only high when it comes to personal desires rather than that of the mainstream. Maybe I am a hypocrite in the eyes of some. Maybe what I do shouldn’t affect my joy or rage when watching anime.
Sometimes while blogging I look at other blogs and the #1 past participle/past simple verb in all of them is “Dropped”. It feels like what I’m doing has become a no-pay job rather than a source of expressing personal opinions and sharing them with both those who agree and disagree with me. Now it feels like, “Oh, I gotta post something soon, otherwise my blog will become repetitive (If it hasn’t already).On the bright side, I do this voluntarily and not forced. the opinions I express in my reviews are my own.
I don’t do deep analyses posts, nor do I explore the aniblogosphere’s general emphasis on what is awesome and what’s not.I just do what millions of others already do and somehow, it’s working.
These kinds of questions pop into my head every now and then and leave after a good night’s res,t but it seems that something always happens to bring them back in. When they do, I have a good laugh because when I should be quitting, I don’t because I’m not going to quit watching anime anytime soon and I’ll always look for people to share thoughts with. In short, I’m a masochist looking for friends whom I’ll have 0.5% chance of meeting outside of a my monitor and talk about shows that soccer moms and priests labeled, cartoon porn.